I was hoping I would be feeling a little better by 11 weeks or so, but no such luck. As reassuring as it is to feel yucky everyday, I’m really looking forward to getting some energy back and eating better.

As it is, here is how my day feels: wake up, feel tired and nauseous immediately. Choke down some soda (desperate for a little caffeine to help me wake up), choke down a bowl of cereal or a bagel and start to feel less nauseous and less tired. Lunchtime: feeling nauseous again. Make myself eat a little something (anything, whatever we have that doesn’t make me gag) and drink some water. Feel less nauseous again. Around 2pm or so, energy crash. Hard. And when I’m extremely tired, I’m extremely nauseous, so make myself munch on a few crackers and drink more water. No naps because I have two kids at home! Dinner time: nauseous, still tired, nothing for dinner sounds good and even if something does sound even remotely good, it ends up tasting bad to me. Drink more water. Lay on the sofa and watch tv. Sometimes if I stay up past 9pm, I get a small second wind and feel okay, so I’ll have a bowl of low fat vanilla ice cream (calcium!). Then off to bed where I lay, nauseous, until I’m able to fall asleep. Wake up the next morning with aching back and hips, and start the day all over again!

One good thing that’s come around in the last few days – water tastes good again! For weeks, drinking water made me nauseous. I was only able to handle fruit juices, sodas and lemonade. Oddly now, when I’m not feeling well, a big sports bottle of ice water makes me feel much better.

I noticed today my tummy seems to have popped out just a little. I don’t know if it’s my imagination, and if it will show up in a photo, but next time I’m dressed, I’ll take another belly pic. (I’m spending more time than I should in yoga pants and old tshirts these days.)

I also lost another couple of pounds, for a total of 8.5 lbs in the negative. This actually surprises me a little because I feel like I’m able to eat more than I did a few weeks ago. But it’s still not as much as I lost in the first trimesters of the last two pregnancies.